But you're still around

It's rare that I come back here at times other than birthdays or anniversaries anymore--and sometimes that makes me sad. I guess that's part of living this life 10 years out...when things have shifted so far from where I was ten years ago. 

But today I had to come back and document what happened Sunday. 

I was sitting here in the kitchen. It was relatively quiet in our house. And out of nowhere, I hear noise coming from the Google Home speaker in our bedroom. I couldn't quite make out what it was, but assumed it was Jeff doing something in there. 

He came out and said, "did you do that?" 

I was like, huh? In the bedroom? No. Why?

Google Home started blaring Somewhere Over the Rainbow. By itself. The kids weren't even in there. Out of nowhere, the song that we played at Luke's funeral came blasting out of our Google Home speaker without anyone telling it to. No voice commands were said.

I've had my beefs with these stupid speakers and how stupid they are (read: they never do what I ask them to do. Ever.). But today...

It's signs like that that I still live for, Luke. 

I've been listening to too much Taylor Swift lately, and there's a part in her song Marjorie that basically kills me every time I listen to it...

...and if I didn't know better

I'd think you were still around

I know better

But I still feel you, all around

I know better

But you're still around

I see you, Luke. <3